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Decisions
When I was a teenager, my dad used to tell me that in real life it is more crucial to know how to make better decisions than simply working hard. However, I am always confused about the essence of making a good decision especially when facing a dilemma. In my opinion, there is no a "good" in making better decisions. Because no matter which side I pick, I would hurt the other side. I would harm others anyway.
Recently I turned down an offer from an investment bank that I interviewed. To be honest, I like the firm culture very much. Professionals there are very approachable and passionate. I enjoyed talking with them and learning more details about their day to day life. However, the firm is based in Seattle that requires a relocation there and I didn't want to leave San Jose. I felt bad when I declined the offer today. I felt like I let them down for not being able to work at the firm. I felt that they trusted me and saw my potentials. Regardless, I just can't leave my life now all behind and start working in Seattle. Even though I know that maybe I made a "better" decision for myself, I still can't feel happy for making that decision.
I have to admit I tend to cry a lot when making these tough decisions. I cried today as well after sending the email. My girlfriend who is 3 years older than me came to have a conversation with me. She said that these moments are totally acceptable and needed to be went through as an adult. There isn't anything that she could do for me except for being here for me. I know that she's right because I do feel like it is important to be brave when it comes to make difficult decisions and or have difficult conversations. I am afraid because I am uncertain. I am uncertain about my capability, my potentials that why I am afraid of missing out. However, if I truly believe in myself and believe the firm, I would think of this problem differently. I would have faith in myself being able to find better opportunities in the Bay Area and the firm could eventually find the ideal candidate for the position.
I guess this event is a valuable lesson for me. I started to realize the importance of making decisions.
I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason. If moving to Seattle didn't seem right for you, it probably wasn't meant to be. I'm sure you'll find great job opportunities in the Bay Area! I wish you the best of luck!!
ReplyDeleteHey Annie, life is full of crossroads and decisions making for better and for worse. Every new chapter in life, comes with a new decision that have to be taken. I am sure that you will find great opportunities in the Bay Area as well!
ReplyDeleteHi Annie, considering the circumstance, it is important to prioritize your own wants and needs over a potentially beneficial job. If you are able to land one of them I am sure you can get another in a more desirable location! I hope that your decisions take you on the path that you want.
ReplyDeleteHi Annie, thanks for sharing this. It sounds like you made the best decision for yourself and I am sure other and better opportunities will present themselves to you because of it.
ReplyDeleteHi Annie, making big decisions is hard for me too but I really believe that your intuition will always guide you to the right places. Maybe moving to Seattle wasn't meant to be, in which case, I'm sure you'll find an incredible opportunity in the Bay Area! Wishing you the best of luck.
ReplyDeleteI'm a total crier too! Thank you for sharing such an intimate piece of your life. When I went through recruiting I also felt like making the right decision was a matter of life or death and I felt so bad when I had to turn down firms I really liked. At the end of the day it's great that you did what's best for you and I'm sure you're capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for. You're going to kick butt Annie!
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